Due to time constraints and because of the content of my site, I am unable to update as much as I wish I could. However, I would like to make a quick update to those that are reading this.

Firstly I am thankful for your e-mails. Most of them have been surprisingly supportive and from open-minded people. However, a few have wondered if this blog is real or a prank. Another weblog even did an "investigation" of me and linked me to another character. I would like to address this whole issue here. I am real. But I will not go to great efforts to prove this to you. I will not indulge in private information just to prove that I actually am who I say I am. And more importantly, it is not important if you do not believe in me, as long as you believe in what I say, and take it to heart.

I like to point another thing. Several e-mailed asked me to clarify what I meant when I said I was a pedophile. Well, I usually attracted to girls of around 7-13. Please do not think of my attraction in terms of sexual interest only. That is usually not the case. Sure, it does come into play in my fantasies, but its not the cause of my attraction, it is the consequence of it. I like younger girls because they have that innocent, naive, and trustworthy attributes that older females do not possess. I could probably write pages on why I like them. The way a young girl looks at you with love, than an older one is very different. The former is done with respect, adoration, and admiration. While the latter usually does it with apathy, lust, or even disrespect. Their love is conditional and selfish. Their way of showing it are usually manipulative and decieving.

I know this may be generalizing a lot, so I hope it does not offend any one. But comparing a 10 year old girl to a 30 year one, is like comparing an angel to a, well, bitch.

 
Hello, my friends.

I was randomly searching and came across this old article. Though like all other articles, this one is also heavily biased.
Still, I like this quote :-
""Yes, I am a pedophile," Rosser types. "As far as I can tell I was born this way, or became so even before the age of 5. I know normal sex play of children was an obsession with me. Even when I became an adult, I felt a child within. I still feel this way, a child masquerading in an adult body. I have never been able to believe in a God who could have perversely created me this way." "

 
Hello.

I stopped writing for my site, because I didn't know if my words reached anyone. It takes a lot of courage to be able to write down my confessions and feelings, and it seemed that it wasn't worth the effort.

However, the kinds words of a fellow reader encouraged me to write again. Please e-mail me, if you read this, so that you can give me the encouragment I need to open up.

 
Happy New Year, everybody.

For myself, I make the following New Years resolutions -

1) I will NOT drive up to any grade schools.
2) I will NOT download child pornography and I have already deleted all of the ones I had.
3) I will NOT buy any child pornography magazines or movies.
4) I will NOT unnecessarily converse with children under 14.
5) I will NOT lurk on boards for preteens or enter chat rooms intended for preteens.
6) I will NOT hate myself for my disease.
7) I will NOT think that I am a bad person, because I am not.
8) I will NOT blame myself for any thoughts I may have.
9) I will educate others about myself.

And lastly 10) I will not be ashamed of myself anymore! I am who I am, and I can't and will not change!

 
I'm still trying to figure out how to use this program. I previously wanted to add the comments feature like other web diaries but I wasn't able to. I wanted to be able to listen to people's input, and be able to defend myself.

If you know how I can do that, please e-mail me at Unclerape@hotmail.com. Also you can send me any comments at the same e-mail. Thank you.

 
I am a pedophile.

I admit that I feel a bit nervous about starting this, exposing myself to the public, and opening up. But I need to start somewhere, and if people try to hate me, I will defend myself. And I hope this is private, and I think there is no way for the law to get to me, but if they do, maybe it's for the best.

Here is my introduction. My name is Sam. I will try not to indulge too many personal information, but here goes. I am 41 and currently unmarried. I am divorced, and the less said about my previous marriage the better. I won't tell you where I live, obviously. And at the moment, I'd prefer not to talk about my profession.


I like young girls. I'm not at all attracted to older woman. It's as simple as how straight guys like woman, and gays like men. Its not something they can control, and every openminded person accepts that. I'm a pedophile. Simple. But the problem is, the term itself brings up such a bad image. It's not something I can control. I wish I did. Being attracted to only young girls brings a lot of complications and headaches. If the problem I have could be removed, I'd be the first one to want it.

I am hoping that people can understand the problems of it. If someone is reading this and can look at us, pedophiles, with less hate and not make so many quick judgements, than I'd be happy. This would all be worthwhile.

I think considering that this is the first post, I'll stop here for now. Thank you.